My grief for you is my own
I don’t have to be allowed it
because it is mine

My sadness in exclusion,
so too, belongs to me
it was mine to begin with
and has not to be forgiven

It's nobody's fault
the hole left by your absence
for mine is the space
once occupied by you

Just because you were
so important in my life
holds no reservation
of my place in yours

There's no blame to be cast
my rejected audition
and how could you include
every one who had hoped it?

Worthiness in the eye
the beholder be blinded
and the depth of deserving
be called into question

So. the shame of rejection
while swallowed in silence
and buried beneath
broken bones
and borrowed time

All the while denied
all these feelings kept hidden
as if you aren't allowed them
they don't belong to you

So, too the silence
you've stolen must be
a miscalculation
not allottedto thee

I crave no kind of comfort
No respite I seek

If I'm lucky I knew you,
were you lucky you knew me?