My thoughts of suicide No longer come at desperate times And these days Neither do they come in waves But rather haunt my dreams at night While you are fast asleep And linger with me All throughout each day No way to keep it simple Wasn’t ready for this fate Force my smile just to make you think That everything’s ok But we both know This is superficial Everything’s a lie Been prolonging the inevitable I just need to die So why do we keep insisting Waking up just to stay down Dragging on Just dragging me around This torture I have found Not sure what I’ve done to earn This consequence of Hell on Earth But my diagnosis fatal No production. What’s this Worth? I’m tired just of being tired Motivation ain’t enough Don’t want you to take this personal This Veil I Wear is Tough The fact I don’t Want to go on Versus you want me to live Is the worst internal conflict That I ever have experienced I love you More than air, you see? And for this reason Rest I seek But you will never let go of Projections of a better me